Casting a nearly weightless fly or “lure” requires casting techniques significantly different from other forms of fishing.

The only way to get rid of temptation is to yield to it.

Leo has the ability to make me laugh, he has the ability to make me cross, he winds me up and then calms me down.  He is infuriating, and sometimes when I communicate with him I can audibly hear his exasperation with me.   I confine in Leo and then curse the fact that I have confined in Leo, it leaves me open and vulnerable.  He has become a friend and I wonder whether having sex with Leo means I would lose the friend.  I weigh up the absurd situation of Ashley Madison that I become friends with a person over a series of emails, whats app, and phone calls. This is an Ashley Madison friendship.

Today I had sex with Leo.  On the 29th May Leo initiated contact on Ashley Madison it is now the 1st July.  We have met briefly twice and have sent hundred of messages and had a few phone calls.  Leo is going to move into the A bracket.  I was offered a choice sex before his holiday or wait until August/September.  I chose not to wait, a choice which shocked me with the intensity of not wanting to wait.  I felt that if we waited then the moment would pass such was the fun nature  of the communication which inevitably over time could not be maintained.

I am not comfortable with my body.  I don’t like people seeing me naked a stupid state of affairs considering I am signing up for affairs.  I want Leo but I don’t want him to see me, I agonised over this decision, Leo has become a friend and a mentor and you don’t sleep with friends.  I have discussed this with Leo, I don’t think he understands, he has had years of experience and when he tells me stories about other woman and their bodies I want to scream.  I don’t care how much confidence you have given other women, they are not me, I am me. I don’t want to hear about his lionesses, his pack, I don’t plan to become part of that, I want one off sex with Leo.

We meet at a Starbucks, I had met Leo briefly the night before as he escorted me to yet another new meet.  Leo is making small talk, it is the hottest day since records began.  Leo looks cool, I feel crumpled at 10 in the morning, I can feel the sweat creeping down my back, I wished I had worn plain practical cotton knickers comfortable and familiar and holey, not the dressy non breathable fabric I had chosen. I look closely at Leo’s shirt for one second I thought he was wearing cheesecloth, a throw back to the 70’s or 80’s.  I think I am going to have sex with a man who wears cheesecloth, I stifle a giggle.  Fortunately a closer look shows he is wearing linen.  A relief.

We travel in stilted conversation to our destination, a hotel in a less than salubrious part of London.  Leo enters the hotel and I loiter outside trying to look calm and sophisticated in the 34 degree heat.  All I can think of is my nice clean underwear is now dripping, I wonder if I am just going to evaporate in a sweat ball leaving a damp patch on the pavement.  I feel that I am pounding the pavement a little too keenly, I am trying to give out signals saying “please ignore this woman stomping up and down outside the Holiday Inn waiting for Leo to check in, she really isn’t just going in for a day of sex”

I enter the hotel and espy Leo who I follow to the lift and I enter the room which is going to be the scene of transformation of friend to lover.

Leo holds me and I feel my nerves starting to subside.  We lie on the bed and I undress Leo.  My first thought is actually you do go down the gym, is has tight muscles and is sinewy.  He is naked, a pleasant and pleasing sight.  I like the fact that he is unshaved and natural.  He is to put it politely “well endowed”  I look at Leo and he has the Leo smile which lights up his face.  I feel myself relaxing and I find myself by deed of Leos gentle undressing naked.  Uncomfortable but naked.  I have overcome the get naked in front of Leo moment. He is blasé and is just Leo.

What follows is that hackneyed word “a journey” filled with pleasure and smiles.  Leo shows his experience and I am bought to orgasm within a short period of time.  I didn’t want to give in, I don’t want to climax in front of Leo, but I do, time and time again.  Leo opens me up and finds my clitoris, rubs his fingers gently over and I feel myself physically responding, he plays and flits and teases and  I find a climax finishing and already another building.  He plays with my breasts in a way that I have never experienced in all of my life.  For the first time I love having nipples!  Leo using his fingers in a movement that is new to me, a sort of flicking and gentle rubbing which causes a deep orgasm.  He then enters me watching my face, he fills me and I like it.   I am taken on a new journey with positions that I have never experienced, I find I am quite agile.  I discover what I have named the Leo One position a convoluted affair which makes penetration extremely deep and pleasant.

Sex the second time is once again a voyage of deep penetration and movement.  Leo is directional (but not overbearing) and I discover he does not like pillow talk during the act!  In fact we don’t actually talk very much during the day which does not bother me.  Small talk is not necessary. During our breaks we chomp on Hotel Chocolat Rum chocolates.  We have tea, I love tea.

We break for lunch and I venture out to source some lunch.  Not easy in the area we are in and bizarrely although I have just had sex with him, I do not know what food Leo likes, another AM learning curve. You are sharing the most intimate of moments yet I can not tell you whether he is vegetarian, or his likes and dislikes.    I cannot gain access back to our room.  The lift is operated by the hotel key card and I have deactivated it by holding it to my phone.  The receptionist takes the card and asks me the room number and the name the booking is in.  Fuck I haven’t a clue, does Leo give his real name or has he booked under John Doe, Mickey Mouse or Rebecca you look as guilty as hell Doe.   I mumble something and she reactivates the card.  I give Leo his lunch, he eats it, his public schoolboy attitude of eat anything.  I make phone calls to my other AM men whilst Leo works.  This what makes me comfortable no illusion that Leo is my only man and vice versa.

We have an afternoon session, Leo asks me if there is anything I want to try.  I want to tell him loads but can’t, there is lots I want to explore but still have a reticence to divulge. I want to try things I have heard about, read about and desired to do.   I do however want to experience giving a man a proper blow job so Leo lends his cock, it is more amusing, I derisory make an attempt and Leo patronising tells me I am doing ok, I contemplate at that moment in time sinking my teeth in.  I think I could hire him out for lessons to middle aged woman who want to learn about sex, I could charge a lot for an afternoon session I could become a Manager.

For the final time I am taken on a rollercoaster journey of climaxes and more climaxes. Although I have alluded to the sexual act and would love to write in detail I won’t. It is not appropriate.  I have however spent a few hours smiling a big broad smile, I can feel it stretching across my face and reaching my eyes. I look at Leo he is smiling too.

During a small pause in our fucking,  I say to Leo “This is what Ashley Madison is all about, good uncomplicated sex, no strings attached”

I have decided every Ashley Madison girl needs a Leo